Judith Grey

Tending Toward Feral, Circa 1961

By the end of that summer 
      I was forbidden to ride my bike—
            not enough skin left on my knees
                  to stitch them up from sliding
                        over tar chip gravel at the dead end.

So we walked the tracks of the Northern Central Railway
       through a dense wooded corridor 
            balancing on parallel rails and harmonizing.
                   Out of sight our secrets were safe:

the signal flag we stole from the caboose, 
     shared smokes, rum cokes 
             and dazzling escape plans.
North to Pennsylvania or looping through trees
      to see where we would end up,          
            a counterpoint to the straight edges
                   we were schooled to follow
                          tending as we were toward feral. 
One afternoon, shuffling through 
      a narrow stream valley
             oddly wild so close to a familiar road,
                  we stopped by an abandoned construction site. 
                        Its shameless dishevelment
                              cut a different kind of edge.

Debris floated off course 
      in the cellar hole deep with water
            from an underground spring,
                  a scar in the midst of wild. 

We couldn’t resist the wreck of it. 
      Our nervous laughter, taunts,
             dares echoed against the slopes.
                    I stepped up to the edge, sat,
                         and let my feet dangle down. 
 No one saw who pushed me in,
       at least no one ever told.
Details of my rescue are lost to me.
           but I remember looking up at their faces 
                  ringing the hole above as I kicked to the surface,
                          grabbed for a plank to keep from sinking back.                                                                                                                  
Someone found a mother to drive me home.
      I worried that I had ruined 
                the back seat of her car
                      with my muddy drowning clothes.
That misplaced house in the woods was never built. 
      I was not grounded and continued
            to roam with the pack. 

We clustered under streetlights,
       the forest nearby pulsing 
             the vibration of millions:
                   cicadas, tree frogs, crickets, 
                         in full-throat end of season roar. 

After twilight thickened to dark, I’d hear 
      my father’s voice rise over the din,

            calling me home, pulling me back.
Eclipse —  November 8, 2022 
Five a.m. on a hilltop above the Great Salt Bay
      a scattering of neighbors, silhouettes
          in hedge-like clusters along the ridge, watch 
              the slow slip of Earth’s shadow over the moon.
                 We share binoculars, hushed mutterings,
                   and curl into the predawn chill. One mother 
                     spreads a blanket, pours cocoa for her boys.
                       At totality, final silver slice gone,
                        a burnt umber disc emerges
                         like a dark room image taking shape
                          from its chemical slurry.
                           Mountains, craters, the familiar 
                            pock marked face, appear veiled and softened,
                             by Earth’s deep sepia overcast. 
                             No headlines here.
                             No opinions, no polls, no posturing.
                             Behind us the first sign of dawn appears,
                             the obliteration of night in a line of fire
                            blinking out stars, satellites, constellations,
                          then pulling up the overlay of day.
                        When we turn back for another look; 
                       the moon has disappeared 
                    like floating ice skim
                absorbed by blue. 
             We drift off, spectators filing out
          to grab a meal, cast a vote, do our work,
      each on a loop with countless intersections
on our own daily rounds.
Ode to My Antipode

Who are you my Antipode                                   
sailing the southwest coast 
of Australia as near to your Augusta 
as I am to mine in Maine?
                                                 Are you the flip side of me?                                                                        
                                                                                           Likely not, just a curiosity
                                                                                           of imagination, linking
                                                                                           us across the globe’s diameter
                                                                                           as far apart as earth allows,
                                                 your sunset, my dawn,
we reach through earth’s
anatomy: crust, mantle, core, 
marking time by the same
phases of the moon,
                                                 lifted up and let down by tides
                                                                                           held in place by gravity
                                                                                           in my winter, your summer;
                                                                                           you are not my doppelganger,
                                                                                           unlikely my soul mate 
                                                 as you sail along cutting a fine wake, 
your Antipodean songs 
mingling note for note with 
minke whales whose voices
circle the globe: minke to 
                                                 minke  to minke to minke.
                                                                                           Antipodean Fellow Terrestrial,
                                                                                           I learned playing in the woodlot,
                                                                                           the challenge of our connection,
                                                                                           the magnitude of digging
                                                 a straight line to reach you;
I have learned and I believe
your whale song is my whale song
your sun and moon are my sun and moon
your salt water and rain water are mine.
                                                 Picture this Antipodean Earthling,
                                                                                           the planet shot through 
                                                                                           with unbreakable lines,
                                                                                           one for each pair of us, a call
                                                                                           and response neuron network.
                                                 Antipodean Partner, our mission, 

            holding the world       in one peace          with soft tissue        bone gravity glue.
Untying the Knots

 

            I need 
a screwdriver and a bed of yew 
tangled with wild strawberries
on a rock on a summer morning
            to untie 
ten knots in the old leash,
ten knots pulled by the dog
whose ashes 
lie in the ground by the 
            ledge,
who had her turn on the wooden porch 
and on the warm patch of grass 
tracking ants and                                                                                          
            grasshoppers.
To worry loose the ancient twists
takes time
while the new puppy pulls 
            to steal 
more berries,
each knot loosed giving her 
a few more inches into 
            the patch.
It’s worth the trouble 
to remember the old dog 
stretched out black in 
            the sun
barking at container ships,
snapping at flies.
Worth the trouble to 
            release 
stripes of bright green 
from the faded leash,
the fresh color preserved in folds
still crisp, a memory
             knot 
from the last time sun and rock and sea 
were so fully absorbed 
in a sigh 
and curled tongue 
            yawn.

© Judith Grey

Judith Grey lives on the Maine Coast where friendships and community as well as connections to the natural world inspire her writing. She writes to consider the puzzle of the world; how flora, fauna, geology, atmosphere, ideas, emotions, and relationships coalesce to form the setting that cradles her every day. Her poems have been published in The Lyric, The Baltimore Review, The Ocean State Review, About Place Journal, Mezzo Cammin and are forthcoming in Calyx.

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